Just Busy Busy and Spewing

Kind of a boring and busy busy week. I have been running around SD schools observing and interviewing for my current class. It is a pass no pass class but the amount of work that is required is insane. Sometimes I wish what I am I doing going back to school. But then I keep thinking of our family future and how I will be the major bread winner. That is totally fine with me. I can't wait to go back to work really. I welcome my little jaunts out of the house. I am so fatigue and worn out. I love my hubby and kids, don't get me wrong, but I am just beat. I have never wanted or considered myself to be the stay at home mom type, yet I am doing it. I should focus on the positive. Look how much we have saved on childcare or babysitting costs? I have turned our family around and because of my being at home we have routine, schedules, and my kids are not monsters and disrespectful. At times I love being at home, but lately I hate it. I love my hubby and the fact that he is working so hard and it is because of him that we are surviving. I am only in my 30's yet I feel I may have a nervous breakdown anytime. I am so looking forward to the weekend and having an adult night out with some of our friends. Thanks for letting me spew.