I was watching a special on the today show and it really inspired me. It was about a woman who was in her 30's and weighed over 300 pounds. Her whole family was overweight too. She dieted and exercised and lost over half of it. Wow. If she can do it so can I! Ever since I have been working at home I am trying to be the good house wife and cook. However, I just eat whatever I want whenever I want. I don't exercise because I am too exhausted and tired. I hate myself in pictures. I hate looking at my body in the mirror. I am tired of wearing big clothes to hide my big belly. It is hard to even find things that fit my odd figure. I am very tired of people asking if I am pregnant and expecting again. I love my mom but I am embarrassed to admit that I am bigger than her now. Please don't criticize but the truth is I have gained 50 plus pounds in the last two years alone. My hubby is so sweet and wonderful. He says "there is just more of you to love." I so badly miss the figure I had when I met my husband. I want to change. I know it is possible. I have done it before. My hubby and I both want to begin the new year eating and exercising. Our main goal is to be around for our kids for a long time. I need the support of all my family and friends as I prepare for my change. I am a cook who has to follow a book. I was looking at the weight watchers book at costco. Any hints on simple yet healthy cookbooks I should buy? Thanks for letting me share my personal struggle and quest for a healthier me. Like I said, any helpful hints or suggestions I welcome your advice and encouragement.